"I AM AN OUTCAST ON A PATH OF NO RETURN! PUNISHER AND SWORDSMAN, I WAS BORN TO BURN!"
~ Manowar
"Einhander"
was conceived long before the release of "Vigilante Romance", but the
music was not written and recorded until summer/autumn of 2007.
Countless rejections by even the smallest and most insignificant indie
record labels forced me to create Exceliza. To this date, i have yet to
sell a single copy of "Vigilante Romance". In 10 years of music making,
i've sold a grand total of 14 CDs. I refuse to admit that my financial
failures are a reflection of my music.
I
am not the first artist to be rejected. I make no claims that my music
is the best available. But i do recognize that nobody else is doing
quite what i do and that my music is largely uncategorizable. But more
importantly, my music is an unabashed extension of my self. I've spent
my 30 years building my self...honing it...sculpting it to the best of
my ability. The purpose of my music is to extend my self to those
gracious enough to embrace it, and in doing so...to redesign the world
in such a way that it is more hospitable to my ideals. To reject my
music is to reject my ideals. And to reject my ideals is to nullify my
existence.
Perhaps
most frustratingly, i've faced no direct opposition. I have no
antagonists. I've sent thousands upon thousands of CDs to a variety of
individuals, magazines, and labels and have never received any negative
feedback. In fact, the only opinions ever shared were from a handful of
close acquaintances, most of which react with hostility towards my
stoicism. Their bitterness has had no effect on me. The true genesis of
"Einhander" was the complete indifference of everyone else. I would
prefer to be hated than ignored.
Those
directly responsible for this ignorance are the employees of the record
labels who were unwilling to take a chance on something aesthetically
unique, philosophically grounded, and personally heartfelt. "Einhander"
is my single-handed effort to focus my anger on these fools and to
symbolically destroy them with my music. Their death is my life.
Tracklisting:
01. Your
02. Death
03. Is
04. My
05. Life
"Einhander"
intentionally begins with a murky mess of torrid hatred [01 - Your],
focuses itself to a single beam of righteous destruction [02 - Death],
contemplates a life of continued pessimism or hopeful optimism [03 -
Is], embraces the joy of living regardless of what the next day may
bring [04 - My], and sprints forward indefinitely toward a self-made
fate of uncompromising happiness [05 - Life].
This CD exemplifies the creation of life at the expense of
righteous death. I do not enjoy music which is destructive simply for
the sake of destruction. Violence and bloodshed should only be
glorified when they are tools to destroy evil and bring about new life.
"Einhander" (and all of my Jon Zaremba releases) is music for life. It
is my love of life that fills my heart with hatred towards all those
who wish to extinguish it. I find great joy in destroying them with
violent electronic music.
The pivotal point in "Einhander" is exactly halfway through the
middle song [03 - Is] . At this moment life wins over death and the
album turns toward positivity. It is here that i decide to create life
anew rather than dwell upon both my own misery and the misery that i
have created within those i've destroyed. This moment is accentuated
with the "life or death?" sample.
Furthermore, the musical triumph of life over death is a
reflection of the inclusion of my blood and semen in the inking of the
liner notes and the album cover's imagery. The letting of blood being
symbolic of death. The letting of semen being the creation of new life.
The final song [05 - Life] ends with a reverberated reprise of the main
melody. This is a statement of my will to live even beyond my own death.
Although much of my music is symmetrical it is not my intention to
proclaim that both good and evil are morally equivalent. I work this
way because a true love of life can never exist without a true
understanding of death...and because volitional life is not free. In
stating this, i am compelled to admit that i am perversely grateful to
the idiots of the record industry for ignoring my music. I had one hell
of a blast making "Einhander"! Pricing:
#01 = $100
#02 = $200
#03 = $400
#04 = $800
#05 = $1600
#06 = $3200
#07 = $6400
#08 = $12,800
#09 = $25,600
#10 = $51,200
This
is the best work i've done so far and it is rewarding to deliberately
limit its exposure to 10 insanely expensive copies. I want to keep my
best for myself and for those who are likely to value it.
Today,
my hope is that my music will stand the test of time. Perhaps some year
in the future someone will discover "Einhander" while sifting through
the wreckage of the record industry. Perhaps at this time i will be
valued. Please use the DNA inked in the CD booklet to recreate me so
that i may sequence music beyond my death. |